Oh, my God. Send help!
Internally crying out for help on how to respond to this person.
I didn’t know what to say to him. I tried to calm myself. I smiled. Yea, maybe a fake one. I didn’t know what my face is doing. I cared less. He keeps on making fun of me. I tried to answer calmly and smile, but whatever I say he answers me with Amen, sister.
I was internally panicking ‘cos I really wanted to punch his face with sharp honest words about his own mistakes and ugly behavior.
Almost at the edge of my patience then a phrase hit my head. I calmed myself even more. Breathed deeply than usual, and said, I’m sorry, but please leave me alone if you don’t have anything important to say.
I left without regret but still trying to calm myself because I know I still wanted to hurt his feelings.
Keep walking away! Keep walking away! Keep walking away!
Repeatedly telling myself so not to return and explode.
It was so hard not to lose my cool. I don’t want to lose the fight. I feel like this situation is so stupid to lose it. I didn’t look back.
Whew! I survived. Thank God!
My hands are cold. Had to drink cold water to keep my sanity intact.
I’m thinking of it now and I figured it was my first time to encounter a person who makes fun of other people’s choices without remorse. Unfortunately, I don’t know how to handle people who mock my choices in life; particularly my choice in being at church.
I wanted to burst out in anger but I need to show grace ‘cos that’s how we church goers should be, right?
Anyway, that’s it. I was able to keep my cool and be kind at the end of it all. I feel victorous but still feeling hurt. Still wanted to punch him too. It doesn’t matter now. I don’t think it’s necessary.
Sigh! Keep me away from this guy. Please.
I’m not sure, but is there something wrong with being at church?